Hello & Welcome, LillyJones. Your distress is real and serious. I am unfamiliar with your medical system. Do you know someone who knows the system, not necessarily a doctor or other medical professional, who could advise you how to get the level of attention you need to remain safe?

As you have difficulty verbally interacting in your psych appointments, have you considered writing? It is easier to dismiss what you say than what you write -- the infamous "paper trail". Putting things in print comes with its own potential problems, though.

Please do what you are able to stay safe.