I can't give too much I'm that way much of the time. My husband keeps me laughing but most times it's a hollow reprieve. I was diagnosed bp w/ rapid cycling. But mostly in the last 40 years I usually am depressed. I would rather be depressed than manic because I get very mean and ugly. Depression is inside me locked away and I usually don't hurt anyone except family....they don't know what or how to make me feel happy. Me either. It's just there. I was for 20 yrs mixed mostly but depression reared it's ugly head and clung on with a vengence until I had shock treatments 25+ in 96-97 when I started to come out of my abyss and realized there was a real life out there. So vling to hope and meds and pdoc someday you will see the light and maybe last for awhile until it returns once again to make one feel like this will never eend. Like a lifer in prison. Only it's within yourself your mind your body...and nithing or nobidy can really make it go away. Sorry to be a bummer...jyst how I'm feeling right now. Be well...be safe

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