Im really freaking myself out right now. I was just thinking about how tough my therapist session is going to be on monday and then just one thought lead to another and i got thinking about my scars and i looked at them. i saw the blank spaces on my arms, thats like all i saw. and i got this sudden urge to fill that space with slices and i started planning out eveerything i want to do to myself. i feel really insane and scared right now. i tried calling my therapist but there was no answer, and i dont have any good friends to call any more. And i cant call hotlines because thats like a really big fear of mine, i know its weird. im ttrying really hard to relax but its hard to when all im thinking about his hurting myself. Can ANYONE help me???