This episode is rapidly gaining momentum, I am really struggling not to log into a virtual world and and find ways to let all the emotions out through rolepaly. ( bad, inappropriate roleplay, the worse the better because It might make me 'feel' )

I have this feeling in the pit of my stomach just thinking about it, knowing I can log in and pretty much instantly find a willing party to roleplay with me.

I'm practically bouncing of the walls and so frustrated at my ability to stop myself letting go because ..... I know if I do I will feel great instead of feeling like I do right now.

I have no idea how to stop this