Dear T,

I am so apprehensive about our first appointment together on Feb 20th since your maternity leave. Of course I'm sure we will find plenty to talk about...we always do. Anyway I hope our appointment goes well.

Dear x-pdoc,
I still have yet to decide on whether to ask you to be my doc again. It's such a difficult decision for some reason. I want you to be my doc and at the same time don't want you to be my doc. Still don't know what's up with that. I guess I have a lot of thinking to do the next 2 weeks or so before I see T. I need to make a decision maybe I will send the new letter I wrote the other day. I dunno.