I finally got up the courage to do another vlog episode. But part way through recording, I just burst into tears. I knew if I redid that part of the video I'd have the same result. So I kept the original recording. And now my boyfriend feels really guilty because he's trying his best to help me, but he himself acknowledged the fact that he doesn't fully understand what I'm going through and he doesn't know what else to do. I don't want him to feel guilty about not knowing how to help me. I already believe that what he already does for me is enough.