That's the depression talking. I'm sure your family doesn't see you that way and are glad to help out. If you are getting self-destrutive please call you pdoc.
This is a great place for being honest and getting support. Keep posting. It really helps.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
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