Purplesecrets, anchor yourself on the "other side". Make an appointment or looking into starting some project when you get back (or go buy a little notebook to use as a journal just to detail this trip and to give your T when you get back). Pretend the trip is a "tunnel" and you just have to last through it and then you'll be right out the other side, safe and sound :-) When I terminated with my T I planned a huge trip to Europe a couple months later and moved, etc. and was too busy moving forward to be so anxious. Or, start something now that is ongoing (I joined a women's group before I terminated therapy but it didn't work out). Either "bridge" or look beyond.

Don't fret too much about the "everybody else" part. Show up and be "selfish". Your mother wants you to be there, you're there, period, end of statement. "Happy Birthday, Mom, where's the cake and I hope it's chocolate" :-) Everyone's grown up or nearly grown up so they'll have to get use to the "new" you. You don't take care of anyone but yourself. You're there because that's how "these things" work, but you don't have to be "happy" about it.