Even if I live in the wrong area, I can't move for three years (grad school) and then I'll end up wherever I can find a job. I probably won't even be able to choose what part of the country. Or if I can stay in the country.

There's clearly something ugly about me though. I've just ruled out physical appearance (unless I'm still too "fat") and I can hold a long conversation with virtually anyone so it's not because I'm boring or too quiet.

And there's all kinds of different people in large college towns (where I live). I mean, I've even found friends that I fit in with. So if they see me as ugly here, I doubt they're going to come running anywhere else.