I had terrible anxiety over what I called "duty" visits to see my dad. I didn't handle them well. I drank a lot just to get through them. He's since passed away & looking back I think the visits were very detrimental to my mental health. I don't think you should go anywhere that makes you feel this much anxiety & stress. Take to your t & maybe you can figure out a way to appease the family without putting your mental health at risk.--Suzy