I was going to make a post until I remembered yours. I am going through this too. Not the sensitivity part - I always have that and it's no worse than usual. But I have found that even though I am feeling great, I am irritable as hell and being very nasty to my husband and my son.
I don't feel like I am hypomanic either. I feel like I would definitely be if trileptal wasn't keeping it in check. But my energy really isn't different. My thoughts are not racing. I jut feel confident, productive, and positive about my life. But the irritability piece is so frustrating' I don't want to be a nasty ***** to my husband. He's a nice guy! And I HATE being short with my son. My mother never gave me the time of day, and when she did it was always with annoyance. I don't want to be like that! I feel so guilty when I'm trying to sleep at night when I replay the day in my head.
I dunno what the problem is. I don't have a pdoc right now (I have refills on my meds from my last doc so I've been dragging my feet about finding a new one) and I don't have any either because I'm sick of therapy honestly. So I'm kinda on my own here.
I have found that IF I can take a half second before I respond, I can take a deep breath and think about what I'm going to say. But most of the time I just blurt out the *****y response before I even have a Chance to think.
I have found that listening to quiet music (my choice is fem folk like Paula cole or Tori Amos) does reduce the overwhelming feeling I get from too much noise. It is my choice to decompress from work, which is a very chaotic environment.
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That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it
f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have.
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