I have a really hard time accepting help too. Hmm I think, what I did anyway was (somehow magically) let the guilt of being taken care of ebb away slowly. Because really that's the best part about family and close friends. They should be with you when you are feeling down and breath life and hope into you when you have none. They take care of you when you fall down and heal you until you can stand again. I can see that you're really beating yourself up for not being able to stand back up on your own but no one is an island I don't know if it'll help but for me, learning to accept love from other really helped me love myself.

And just food for thought, you may want to talk to your psych to consider upping your dosage of medication. At least for a short while to get you back on your feet. Or maybe try to find a new counselor?

You sound like you're trying so very hard I hope healing comes soon!