Oh, and I'm BPII. I've only been hospitalized once and that was for a suicide attempt (after the tussle with the ex. I was so ashamed I tried to hurt myself). I'm tall, fairly good looking, well spoken..... I have a feeling I'd get laughed at if I tried to file for disability.

I can't give the kids back to my ex. At the best they would be sent off to boarding school by her lover or worse, she and them would be kicked to the curb.

Ugh...... If it was just me, I'd be quite happy to live in a tiny trailer and be a mechanic. I don't need much. But I have three sons who count on me. I have their bills to pay. I have them to educate and raise to be good young men.