Ever since I was little (around Kindergarten), I always had an obsession over some king of object, like a doll. Whenever I would lose that object, I would be in a panic and will look for it for a week or two. I would break down and cry a lot when I could never find it. It would take me 3-5 weeks to get over this kind of deal unless I find what I've lost.

I'm 16 now, but I still feel like this. Recently, I've lost my MP3 player six days ago because I stupidly left it on the counter after my dad, brother and I went jogging. I can't remember anything after that because my memory is terrible, so I searched the whole house 6 times!! I still can't find it, I just break down inside. Yes, I love music very much, so as alternatives I listen to music on the computer and my tablet.

I wish I could calm down and persuade myself to think rationally and look for the possible places that I might have put it, but I can't! I even suspect that my mom has hidden it and I feel like crap. Throughout the years, I've been obsessive over little things that were important to me and things that were of no use to me! Could there be anything wrong with me??