With all the child abductions in the news lately, I've been involuntarily re-visiting the 8th year of my life.

Been hearing his words, "Maybe you won't be here tomorrow, what do you think of that?"..... as the gun barrel is pushing into my back. I did whatever he said so I might survive... just like those boys in the news..... they did what they did--- to survive. It messes with your head when you are so young and confused. (I was not to talk about it- ever)

God, I've NEVER had any real long-term goals -- all my life!

Could it be that, part of me was stuck with the gun to my back.... just trying to survive, taking one day at a time not seeing more than each day ahead-- ALL my life????


mandy