I cry sooo much I can totally relate. I didn't know how much I cried until I went mixed state and suddenly I was depressed but had not tears. My hands kept wiping my tears that weren't there, like a reflex that matched my mood. I have never been to my T or pdoc without crying, it is just part of me. OK, now here is a secret I would only share here. When I am particularly emotional and know I will wake up in the middle of the night and want to cry, I keep a special towel tucked under my pillow. I even did it as a child if I was upset. There is nothing worse than wet pillowcases in the middle of the night.