I've been trying to tell you what a mess my house is, and how terrible I feel about it. I took pictures to show you, and if you compare them to pictures rating hoarding, they are on the scale. I need help, but I don't want to stray from the other work I'm doing - except I think its all linked - the holding on to things because I might not be able to afford to replace them, saving things because someone close to me gave them to me , not wanting to admit that I shouldn't have bought something... Because there have been so many losses and set backs in my life since 2010. You had me make a list to show P Doc there were so many. And the weekends I haven't been able to get off the couch have taken their toll.

I took pictures so you would understand, but I'm so afraid to show them to you.