Missbella thank you. You seem to totally get where I'm coming from in a few short posts whereas my therapist still doesn't 'get it' after several months.

I actually feel stronger then ever right now. In the last year I've coped with a terrible diagnosis (and equally poor prognosis), a family that cant cope with it and a huge restructure at work. Somehow I've picked up all the shattered pieces of myself and glued them back together and come out the other side. The therapist has hindered rather then helped me and seems frustrated that I haven't needed to depend on him to do it.