hi tessawinter
I think that you know you are in an abusive situation. as you said, he has already crossed one off the list, how long before he is beating you? do you want to wait that long? contact advocates to end domestic violence. make an escape plan. you may love him, but love yourself more. if you don't, get into counseling until you do. you need to get out before you become a statistic. there are shelters you can go to that will keep you safe until you can get on your feet. please take care of yourself. welcome to psych central. you will find that we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome.