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Originally Posted by A Red Panda
Yeah... I keep throwing myself under the bus because I don't want to find myself a total recluse - what on earth would I end up doing once hypomanic! (hahaha.... )
I just get frustrated with myself after I realize that I've basically just rejected myself due to tiny little instances. Like... I will always have solid reasons as to WHY I won't feel like I'm welcome - but to pretty much anyone else, they would be totally unconnected. I just experience a tiny little piece of rejection or change in someone's behaviour and I take it the rest of the way. It's frustrating and I know I'm not the only person who does that... I just don't know anyone who does it too.
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Yeah... I keep throwing myself under the bus because I don't want to find myself a total recluse
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I'm a hermit now; it's very relaxing but not very rewarding.
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what on earth would I end up doing once hypomanic! (hahaha.... )
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Work on a hobby? Work on a job? There's a lot one can do alone, IMO. It can be much more productive than with people.
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I just get frustrated with myself after I realize that I've basically just rejected myself due to tiny little instances. Like... I will always have solid reasons as to WHY I won't feel like I'm welcome - but to pretty much anyone else, they would be totally unconnected.
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Same, I just got told, "I don't get your line of thinking". It was basically about how I knew the person just wanted to **** me because they had better looking people available.
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I just experience a tiny little piece of rejection or change in someone's behaviour and I take it the rest of the way. It's frustrating and I know I'm not the only person who does that... I just don't know anyone who does it too.
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I do this a lot. Sometimes, I do it just so I have a reason to push them away. Getting too close to me is kind of suffocating after awhile.
I've interpreted simple facial expressions as rejection and never called the person back/talked to them again. If asked, I said they hated me or I bothered them
You aren't the only one. This is very common for me, especially the hypomanic "social abilities". I'd sometimes not want to come down from them, but it's not always good because it can make me irritable.