Tomorrow I am seeing a team at the psychiatric hospital because I am losing MY MIND! If I can just get through tonight then maybe tomorrow they can give me some benzos and I can just take those at night so help the anxiety. I have such bad anxiety and what is scary is that I cannot tell it apart from depression. I have depression now too because of the buspar. &^%$!

How do we stop constant fears from taking over us? my parents do not deserve to have to live with a 29 year old manchild who is on disability because of his depression and asperger's. I am taking money from the government and I am not even sick, I am just like "oooh I don't want to work!" crybaby... They say that this is a legitimate thing to get disability for because I have bipolar disorder and the depression and anxiety make it so that I cannot have a stressful job. But I do not want to steal money from the government! And now I am going to the psychiatric hospital tomorrow and they are going to charge me an arm and a leg and my deductible is $5,000. So I am helpless and hopeless.