Hello I am new here. I have been struggling quite a while with things lately, when I was a child I was physically abused in some ways. This has really destroyed my life and I can honestly say that as an adult I am losing it.

I have reoccurring thoughts of abuse, i have repeated visions and thoughts of people hurting children or hitting them. Some may say that hitting children in some ways is not abuse but I completely disagree. I am severely traumatized by that.

Like I said I have repetitive thoughts about this (hundreds and hundreds of times) what can i do to make this stop? (i have a therapist who is not really any help)

Anyways I have gotten to the point where if I ever see someone hitting their child in public I want to beat their faces in, and hit them for hitting their child, see how they like it. I know that I could beat the crap out of them and my self control is at an all time low. I know it doesn't make me any better than them but i cannot stand to see kids being hurt in anyway and these thoughts are ruining my life and driving me crazy.

What can I do about this? I can't stop these thoughts and could really end up hurting someone someday and beating the crap out of them or worse. I seriously feel like I am losing it a little. My mind is tired from all of these repetitive thoughts.