I would strongly advise you to focus on your studies and recovery from anorexia - eating normally and regularly. Anorexia is the deadliest psychiatric condition and thus should not be taken lightly. You also report body image issues. This combination of vulnerabilities - body image issues, disordered eating, comparing yourself to others and feeling that you don't measure up, a misguided sense of urgency - can set you up for the most disastrous relationship with a guy whom you will pick up without much forethought but in a hurry just to meet the deadline, and then your anorexia can flare up. Let us talk this hypothetical - you are with a bf who, yes, calls your face beauuuuutiful, but wishes you had more t&a and does not hide it. How would you handle this, on top of the body image trouble you already have?