I mean, you ARE an adult. No one can force you into care unless you are a risk to yourself or others or psychotic. So no, they can't force you to participate in treatment. But I would take a step back and think if it really is the best move. I understand ghat you are frustrated because nothing ever changes so why bother? But I know you have a son. A son who has his own issues. And I'll just be honest. My mother was/sti is mentally ill - at least depression, maybe bipolar or borderline, but I'll never know because she never got treatment. My mom neglected us as children emotionally because she was too depressed or angry to get out of bed. It took me many years to forgive her and I still get upset with her erratic mood shifts.
I have a son too and I could never forgive myself if I didn't do everything I could to build a better life for him. For me that means taking a med that I really don't want to take and seeing a doctor even though I hate them. Because even if I'm still screwed up at the end of the day, at least when he's an adult I can look him in the eyes and say I did the absolute very best I could.
That being said, it is always your choice to continue treatment. If you feel it is the best thing for you, then take a break and see how things go. It will be there if you ever decide to go back. Maybe not your current team, but someone will.
I hope you find peace with whatever you choose.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real?
-Albus Dumbledore
That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it
f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have.
-Garden State
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