We'll alleycat love the name. All of my friends have recently quit talking to me ( my fault would rather not bring it up lol) but I pushed them away like everyone close to me and now I don't have any of their numbers they didn't invite me to Christmas Or New Years like the past few years. They even didn't tell me they all moved in together. Spent last week crying about it part of this week. Today is better but still feel a little fragile. I know I get close to people and they become my triggers usually prob spawned from my codependency. When you find how to differentiate do please let me know lol till then I'll commiserate and feel the same way and suffer the same battle with you. Also you will get better if you hold together enough to get there.....just takes time.