I've had a lot of stress lately. And a few days ago I was super stress and feeling upset and hopeless like there was no point in living. Well I didn't feel like being by my bf and he just wouldn't leave me alone so I said the worst possible thing I could say just to get rid of him. I really didn't realize the whole weight of what I said before he reacted to it. Then I felt so bad about what I said that I had something between a anxiety attack and a mental break. I thought about how bad of a person I am and how I only harm people and I suddenly couldn't breathe. I keep huffing and gasping for air and couldn't start again. It wasn't like I was panicked I couldn't breathe I didn't really want to breathe I was just so upset that I had hurt my bf feelings. I felt useless and like a bad person and that was all I felt. And finally after a while of my bf trying to snap me back I was able to breathe. I wanta know what this was it really scared me afterward it was like I completely lost control.