oh my goodness...

I have an all day long class on Tuesday. I have to be there at 8:30, and there is a long drive. The class is a career development kind of thing (not college) and with the textbook it cost over 500 dollars, and from the looks of it, I am at risk of, to put it euphemistically, not making the most of this opportunity.

I have been on a hypomanic spree, which I recognized for what it is and deliberately seized the chance to use that increased focused energy to make my apartment from a complete mess to a nice livable place that is even decorated. I am not fully there yet, but I have made immense progress. I have never felt this kind of drive before - say, this morning, tired and exhausted already, I saw the stuff on a couple of shelves right above my cat litter boxes, got up and started putting everything that didn't belong there to other places (thanks to my efforts in the previous days, I had had prepared such places) and didn't stop until there was one thing on the shelf - the Febreze bottle for pet odors, because it does belong there. And other such things. I have spent money on credit, deliberately because I know that once I am in a nice place (before I started on this spree, I had no dinner table, no sofa, etc.) I will have a more orderly life and find a job eventually.

Several days ago I got up at 5, which was very early for me. Afterwards, I would get up between 6:30 and 7:30, and this morning I woke up at 7 exhausted.

Basically I am crashing into exhaustion rather than depression.

It is raining, and I like walking in the rain, so I will walk to the grocery store with a huge bag of plastic bags, place them in a recycling bin, walk back, have a bit of food and take Zyprexa PRN.

Hopefully I will get a good night's sleep and calm down.

I think part of why I am so exhausted is that I haven't been eating and drinking enough, because in that wired, driven state it is hard to pause for a snack and a cup of tea.

Tomorrow I have a lunch date with my former coworker. He has BPII. I told him about the episode and that I would take Zyprexa and call him in the morning, to confirm, just in case since one can oversleep on vitamin Z. But I am now thinking that even that lunch, with a friendly, understanding, and sometimes flirtatious guy would be too stressful for me, so maybe I should postpone.

I can go swimming and go for a walk.

I can read the textbook for the class, which is not mandatory, but recommended.

I can go to a sauna, but I haven't been to a sauna in years. Finally, I can get a massage, which will calm me down but will cost money.

I have some essential oils and can take a bath with them, which would also be relaxing, but free.

I can try restorative yoga poses at home.

I can pet my cats.

What else can one do to come to the baseline and be ready for the class?