"I worked so hard to get a college degree. I spent 6 years getting a 4 year degree because I have numerous problems. I took out $40,000 in student loans and the only job that didn't get me into a tizzy was working part time as a bagger at a grocery store. And I had to quit that job after 4 months because all of the standing brought up an old disc injury I received back in high school football."

I hear you! I also worked extremely hard for six years to get a 4 year degree. It hasn't paid off for me yet, but I'm still hopeful.
I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers tonight . I know how overwhelming the anxiety and guilt can be .
Hang in there, you can get through this! Good luck tomorrow with the doctors. Keep us posted