I felt the same. Everyone else liked me. I got along fine with friends, work colleagues, everyone. I had such a low self esteem though. But my family always put me down. No matter how hard I scrubbed the house they would make a big joke of my housekeeping skills. If I cooked all day to make them dinner they wouldn't compliment me but put me down. I cuddled my kids too much. My hair colour was wrong for me. I never did anything right with any of them. At 40 I decided to get help for me! Yes to find out what is so bad with me! Because we are always told if your mother cant love you who can. I soon found my mother was a narcissistic mother. They pick their golden child and the other is the black sheep (me). So my family my whole life was taught I was the black sheep and the butt of jokes by my mother. I was mean. I was to be laughed at. I was to be treated as less than equal to the family members. I was a liar above all. My mother was the martyr and she groomed them that she never told lies and all I did was lie. So if I retaliated I was instantly the ***** for telling awful lies and they would all look at me like I was insane. And family friends were all told what a difficult time my mother had with her 2nd child syndrome child and poor her to have to keep trying and trying to deal with me. But she would persevere with such a difficult child! In the end I just had to cut off my family members as I tried to explain to them what she was doing to me but off course its more lies. You have to move on and realise your worth and not the worth they put on you.