i have hurt an internet friend. She thinks that she is there for me but I am not there for her. That is partly true. Because last week she emailed me having taken medications and alcohol. And her typing/spelling was so incoherient I did not know if she would make it through the night. I really dont want that responsibility being the only person who knew that she had combined alcohol and medication with the results being lethal. So I sort of backed off. I still messaged her every day to ask her how she is. So I did not really back off.

Now she is saying that "people", I would assume she means me, accept support from her.But then do not help her when she needs help. Truthfully, if she just would say she needs help I would help. I think I should just offer help. And not wait for her to say she is needing it. i actually just did that. I really feel horrible and guilty. I wish I was in a better place to help. But I am not. A good friend helps regardless of the place they are in. So I will help her in a better way.