Hi sweetheart, I very touched by your openness and willingness to discuss your feelings, insecurities, and fears. For someone who is as young as you are, I am very impressed with you. She is still young and doesn't have the life experience to know what to say to you or how to clearly understand what you are going through. I am ten years older and am in your girlfriends situation. I love my boyfriend very much but it's hard to be with someone who is sad a lot and doesn't want to see a therapist. All I know is that you are miles ahead of most people and I'm very proud of you for talking and seeking help.