No, please don't apologise, that has helped tremendously!

When I saw my psychiatrist and got diagnosed I was really depressed and was more focused on my moods and my anger, and I guess we/he/I skipped over a large part of what I do.

I feel so rejected if they don't message me back, and I say things I know I shouldn't. I'm so happy with my girlfriend, but I end up telling people how fit they are, I don't know what I'm hoping to achieve, do I just want them to want me? I really don't know. And it damages my relationship a lot. And my friendship.

I have an overwhelming need to feel needed or wanted or important. I don't understand why.

Like I said, I'm so happy in my relationship, but I can't let go of past relationships. I can't go to certain places because it reminds me of them. And I can't let go of one of my ex's. She left me before I got to the hatred stage - so all the memories I have of her are in the first stage. Her being perfect and on a pedestal, and I can't let her go. She's a horrible person but I can only remember the things that made me feel like she was amazing. I know that my partner now is amazing, I've been through the love and the hatred and fell in love all over again. But I can't let my ex go. I don't know if I'll ever be able to.

Sorry, this is my novel now!! In short, thank you so very much for your response, you have helped a whole lot! That tattoo is a great idea, too.

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