Feeling really down today, just as I did yesterday. I see my pdoc this morning and I don't know what to say to him. He's going to want to know my symptoms, and I don't really know how to describe my depression. I just know it's killing me, so much sadness and emptiness. Feeling like nothing is going to help (medication or activity/a job). I don't talk to my T until Wednesday. Feel like I need to talk to him today. Such a downer and I feel helpless to change things. Just want to curl up in a ball and disappear. Yes, it's a bad day. How could things have been so different last week? I felt like I was making some headway. What happened?