I know I'm supposed to be myself. I wouldn't want to force myself into something. I recently thought I found true love for the first time. She had everything I ever wanted and we got along really well. But for reasons unknown to me, she didn't want to make it work. Maybe that's the reason why I feel so lost. I mean how can I ever find a relationship when I can't even find someone I'm attracted to. And it doesn't end there, you need to get along, like similar things. And then the other person has to love you too. It seems too far fetched, especially from where I stand. People around me jump from relationship to relationship. I know I can't be like that. They don't really love the person they are dating, just doing what they think they are supposed to do. But seeing them makes me hopeless. They are dating countless people and still they can't find someone they really like, how can I who finds someone once in a few years hope to find love? I feel like I'm going to die without ever finding love, but I know I can't settle for less.