I stopped taking my medication (Lithium and Propranalol) about 6 months ago. I felt so good on the medication that I started thinking maybe I wasn't Bipolar after all or maybe I didn't even need meds... yeah. That wasn't it at all. I relapsed with the most severe manic episode since diagnosis.

Now in order to save my health, sanity and relationship I am getting back on medication today (as well as joining this forum, writing in my daily blog, getting therapy, studying the illness, etc.) I am extremely happy to be getting back into the positive groove of getting help willingly but I must say this morning has been super anxious, restless and nervous nonetheless.

I feel like stopping my meds was the worst thing I could've done. It's not that I'm nervous to be back on them...I guess I'm just nervous that even though I'm getting help now that it may be too late to reverse the negative effects my last manic episode had on my life.

Any positive words are appreciated. Gotta push through!