Having a hard day today, and feeling really alone. My partner is going through his own stuff too so I don't want to be a bother and vent to him. Just need to vent I guess. I was supposed to go out for lunch with a friend, and I bailed because I feel so crappy, but I KNOW it would have been good for me to go out. I don't know. She knows I deal with anxiety, but she doesn't know I struggle with depression. Why is it easier to be open about anxiety than depression. Why do I feel more ashamed? It's so frustrating. I'm pissed at myself for cancelling, as now here I sit unproductive, lonely and overwhelmed.