It must have been very painful to hear that response from your husband, but I admire your courage to at least ask that of him. It sounds to me like maybe he is putting up a wall and it'll probably take some work to break it down. Do you think you might be able to do that with him?

Congrats on your new job! Even if it is something you're not too pumped about I still think it's great that you are trying. Please keep trying.

I empathize with your feelings that you're slipping, I use that word "slipping" for myself too. I am all too familiar with those feelings of hopelessness, insomnia, and no motivation. I know that it feels like nothing will ever get better in this moment but it will get better again. Search your heart and I think you will find that you already know that, even if you don't believe it right now.