I appreciate your guys's words.
Really struggling with getting going. I forced myself to shower and get ready and now I'm paralyzed by the idea of going out and running these fricken errands I "should" get done today as I'm without car tomorrow. I feel like a failure, ugly and crying. I really need some support from my partner but I know he really has other stuff going on at the moment... Sometimes I fear I'm overly dependent on him. ****. I don't know. Deep breath.... Ok I think I will do some painting to distract myself, and try to deal with the other list of to dos later. How do you force yourself to do things? I struggle tremendously at times.