He never forgave me for my 3 month mixed episode in the late summer early fall. Which is up to him to resolve there's nothing I can do to help that. I should have gone IP then. shouldn't you wait to make that decision until you've been stable for a long-time running? when's that? I told pdoc and T i'd wait until i was home and i did. I don't feel that will ever happen and I dealt better with depression with no meds. I'm willing to accept that I maybe depressed for the last 6 months. I'm regretting even going for help. I didn't want meds in the first place.

The good news pdoc canceled until next month.