Hi there Sunluvr, Indigoviolet here--my search for purpose is ongoing...and i know how it feels to be alone--sometimes walkabout helps me, when the weather permits...as lately its been cold and ridiculously crappy out there...on the wander i come across things, ideas and interesting people to talk to...sometimes just the beauty of the natural world lifts me up enough to consider what could be possible--i've been wandering alot lately--also having some kind of work helps too...though i'm down to temp work at this point...do you have anythings you really love to do? Like things that give you a good feeling when you do them? Sometimes the trail to purpose can start with these--like finding a shiny stone, pick it up and keep moving...with me its creating a beautiful piece of artwork/jewelry...when i can work--getting past my own internal judge--to just create...that can give some sense of purpose..Its hard i know to move out from under the crushing weight of what used to be and try to refashion another life from the rubble of the old one...i've been trying for 4 years and just now its getting easier--but the bad days still come...you are not alone. Hope you find some wonderful dream soon to lift you up so you can see your way to some better times--you deserve it! my reply sends a hug--even though i have not mastered the little face thingys...best of luck also...