i just don't know what to do anymore. i applied to college/university and i just don't know what to do. i applied to business (at uni) and enviro sci (at college). everything i want to do is blocked out for me (which is art) and now that i kinda want to do business my family is sparring it. my parents always wanted me to become a doctor and i never wanted to do that (when i was younger i promised myself i will never become a doctor). my parents think i'm failing although i have a 88% and my family marked me as a failure. my older sis has flunked out of university and is convincing me that i'm stupid, a failure and i won't make it a day through university and that i should stick to college. and then at the same time she tells me i should do what i want to do and i shouldn't do what my parents tell me to do (and i can't apply to art anymore because the deadline to apply is long gone) and then she says to go into enviro sci (she's contradicting herself). as for my other siblings they don't care and they say that i'm really really stupid and a huge fail so i should go to college. i want to make something out of my life and i want to show my parents that i can do so much so that's why i was thinking business and as for enviro sci you barely get paid anything plus it's extremely boring. i just don't know what to do. my family has convinced me i'm a fail so i'm scared about going to university but i think i could do it but then again my sis is telling me no. and i don't want to do enviro sci at all. what should i do? stick to business at uni or go to college for enviro sci? or should i just take a year off after high school to sort out my life? i'm at my breaking point :'(