So I have my little online friends, but I feel very alone IRL. Like I don't know how to be a friend or to have one.

I took a online test about your real age yesterday, which made it worse. I know I am not doing anything in the way of fitness activities, and I am not getting out because I am chronically tired, but it sure didn't help to read that at 58 my biological age is 75. Not that it was surprising, because I feel like I'm 80 many days.

I know what I need to do, but I don't seem to have the energy to do it.

I was a certified fitness instructor at one time and often read about nutrition and lived a healthy lifestyle, so I know what I'm supposed to do to eat right and exercise, and starting with small steps, yadda, yadda.

And I had a reasonably active friendship life, although I've often felt that there's a mysterious "something" missing from my friendships that other people have and I don't -- and that I don't know what it is . . .

So I guess I'm just feeling blue.

Went out and spent too much money at the health food store on miracle elixirs and snake oil, so we'll see if I'm here writing that I'm rejuvenated in a few days.