Dear T,

If I walk in and right of the bat ask you in the scheme of thing is self harm really that bad. Will I throw you off? I know I'm put together in front of everyone. It'll tell you exactly where I am at. Do you realize I've been depressed for 6 month in spite of doubling my anti-depressant? I asked you one time why you have never asked me to go to the crisis center. You told me its because I'm the strongest person you know and some how I always pull myself back from from the edge. I'm starting to believe that I'm incredibly strong but it's not fair. I should be allowed to crumble.