Well, if you're hypomanic then it's bipolar

When I'm hypomanic, I'm right into EVERYTHING. Social things, solo things... I start a new hobby every dang time and then I get bored and don't go back to it, but I'll miss all those things. Usually once a year or so I'll go back to a hobby for a bit.

But yeah.

Back to my own topic of jumping to rejection...

I've been really irritated lately (going on three weeks now) and have decided that I have absolutely had it.

Basically, my friendships only exist if I contact someone. If I don't, then we don't talk. And that's hard for me, because it makes me feel like a POS and like I'm just annoying everyone.

So I'm done. I put the date I started into my phone, and I am not messaging a damn person. If they message me to talk and not because they need something, I'll record the date in my phone and will resume contact with them.

I just don't get why I'm not worth the effort, ever. Like... I TRY so hard to not be horrible, so what do I keep doing wrong??