All I can say is I have been there for so long, I thought I would never climb out of the hole. But I finally started back on my medication and things started to improve. The main thing that helped me is to not beat yourself up. You are lovable and worthy of love. Your pain is real I am sure, but there is help out there. I hope you start to come out of this episode soon. You are valualbe and worthy.

Lenny