Yeah, pros and cons. If I could stop meds and not get depressed right awasy I would do it, but I can't. It's like before the meds everyhing was intense - intensely good, intensely bad, but now it's just low grade depression all the time. I want to just stop all the meds entirely and see what happens, but I'm worried that I will end up loosing my job if I go off the rails. So I'm living this constrained life, just to keep a job and have my material needs met, but spiritually and emotionally dead. I tried to do some LSD to see if that would help, but my meds blocked it and I got almost no effect. So even that didn't work. I don't know how long I can handle living this way.

Meds - saphris, lamotrigine, wellbutrin, mirapex, seroquel