So I can go see a t and as long as I don't show any signs of self harm they can't force me to go see someone that will make me take medicine cause I don't want to end up locked up or forced to take medicine. And further more what exactly can I not say like what exactly qualify someone as harmful to them selves or others. Like if I told my therapist there was an incident where I got so stressed and then depressed from the stress that I had a panic attack and couldn't breathe but was so depressed I didn't care if I never breathed again. Would she make me take meds because technically I wasn't purposely trying to harm myself I just wasn't helping myself. I mean it's not that I don't want get help at this point it's that I don't want to be forced to get on medication especially if I'm not even sure if it will help. I also want to be able to get off medication if it doesn't help but I'm afraid if I go to the t and truely talk about how I feel sometimes then I will be force to take medication.