I wasn't so different than you. I wanted a relationship more than anything. For years I searched and finally met the right person. It is no walk in the park to find a lasting love. Know in your heart you will find a woman one day and keep looking if you want, but add in other things. Don't make it your entire life's focus. Do hobbies. Do chores. Work on learning new things. Have experiences, because then when you meet your girl, you will have so many cool stories to tell her.