I also avoid showering when I can. I don't know why either exactly because I always feel alright once I'm there - that or I burst into tears if I'm in a depression.
I would guess that that has something to do with it - when I showered or when I went to bed were the only times I could cry freely growing up... have probably associated both with that.
Also when I'm depressed I just don't give a rat's ***** about much. And if I'm avoiding it while in an up then it just means I'm too "busy" to bother. haha.
Still keep mostly to my schedule though.
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