on the outside i try to put forward an optimist, always happy trying to do anything and everything for everyone...

on the inside i feel very much pain and suffering.. i even have dialogs with myself of why i have what seems to be 2 different personalities?

its just confusing and slowing down my progress... sometimes i wish i could shoot the nice guy so the real me can be expressed hehe...

why is this..? i feel i can put forward the real me over the computer, as in here on these forums but i still "sugar coat" things...?

"sigh"